Lessons Learned...a view from the bottom of the pool
A wise friend told me earlier this fall that I have always kept myself busy as a way to cope, but now that business just seems overwhelming. It has been true. Somewhat like turning a Rubik's cube, hoping to put the same colors together, I have been slowly turning the dial, hoping that things connect.
Sometimes the loneliness can be unbearable...something I have not experienced in a long time. It is amazing how one can be fully surrounded by others and yet be so alone. It's a process. Somehow it doesn't make it easier going through this again, pulling myself from the edge. My consolations are a few...I don't have a five year old girl looking at me, wondering what is happening and I have done this before...I made it...I survived.
I am getting stronger...I am knowledgeable...I know what needs to be done. I just need to put my feet forward, stepping one foot at a time. It can be done...I can do this...
Remember that there are so many in our world hurting right now...be kind...be loving...remember that we must band together to not only heal ourselves but heal the world.