Kayaks...a smooth ride

My father and I have taken his kayaks down the river during visits in Sunriver, OR. I have loved these trips down the river for more than one reason. First of all, I love the water. Although the ocean is my water of choice, the river, with it's smooth as glass current, is a gorgeous ride indeed. When it is quiet you can hear the water parting around the front of the kayak, lapping against its hull. Secondly, the time spent with my father, the shared quiet.

The calm that can be felt as you float down the water, wind gently blowing against your skin brings a sense of peace.

This is a feeling I could really use...peace. It is a struggle right now and I feel that the world is swirling around me. I am caught in a whirlwind of emotions that I have locked inside. There is so much going on, I am not even sure where to start. My heart is breaking for our sweet boy, watching him struggle. Watching him like a hawk, looking for a sign that things are moving in the right direction...a glimmer of a smile, a rise of his eyebrows.

At this time, I am seeking peace of spirit, peace of heart. As I think of those times, floating down the river, blue sky above me and the water below, I feel wrapped up. I am hoping over time to begin to feel the peace again, feel the calm in my heart. I am ready for the the tornado of emotions to stop, for the whirlwind to end...I need peace.