Finding Joy in the Journey...

If you hadn't already noticed...my blog titles are essentially going in alphabetical order. The "G" will remain missing because our sweetest boy is still missing for all intents and purposes. He is here, but it will be months before we really see his recovery. Although I still believe that he will recover, I also know it will not be speedy. My comment the other day on Facebook was referring to this even though it was far from well worded.

Today we brought our boy home...it is a joyous event. I am so grateful to be typing this post while sitting on my own couch, in my own house. I am comfortable and warm. Javad is in his own bed, being cared for by our primary nurse, Anne, who has been with us since Javad was four months old. We have been lucky to have such consistent care for the littlest.

It is now time to find joy on this journey. This can be difficult during some times...feeling the loss right now. Over the last thirteen years there have been a variety of times that one could describe as "difficult," times when  joy was difficult to find. Fear can be a horrible thing...a place where logic goes out the window and emotions rule. There have been multiple times since  "the event" that I have allowed my mind to go to the place where joy struggles to survive. There have been some rough times, but it is time to find joy along this journey...celebrate where we are and how far we have come.

It has been a long journey but ours has not come to an end...we are still fighting everyday.We are fighting to find Joy along the journey...I prefer to live my life that w
ay but I am not going to lie...it's sometimes really hard!